The Complete and Utter Eradication of Angela

Got a minute

2011-08-21T23:15:00.001-07:00

I told you not to do this to me. I actually asked very nicely. Im out of breath. My heart hurts. I just want to hear your voice. How have your reflexes stayed to strong? I have so much i want to tell you. I need you to help me smile. I feel pathetic and drowzy. My head hasn't been on straight in 10 days. Ive kept to myself. My eyes are consistently cloudy. My go to album doesnt work anymore because now that to has your name written all over it. I just really want your hands. Just for a minute.

Like a Staring Contest

2011-07-18T11:37:00.000-07:00

I have come to realize that when people want things to happen, they figure it out. Excuses are just bullshit reasons for not wanting it. I don't want to be a person someone clings onto strictly because they need affection. This plane crash is about to hit the ground. Im tired of putting effort into this. I feel sick. I miss you. I can't believe you hung up.

Red Paint

2011-07-01T13:52:00.001-07:00

Why can't I find someone that doesn't treat me like shit. I need to weaken my reflexes and look for courtesy. I am tired and I am drained. I am done letting people in.

Rocket Boy

2011-03-04T15:53:00.000-08:00

As if i didn't feel inadequate before. My self-concept is at a new low. Laying on my floor surrounded by maps wishing I was anywhere but here. I'm trying to measure my worth but I cant decide if its in inches or tablespoons. Tangles can only be perceived intellectually, making the origin of human knowledge about triangles impossible to trace. Triangles are not real but the idea of them is understood. The way i feel right now, its not real because even though I think I can trace it I cant and i definitely don't understand. I knew better to believe in a world of appearance when its all layed out in forms and ideas. I jumped in over my head and really thought that it might of been mutual. Pathetic is the only word I can find to describe myself. I really need a new hobby.

Nip It In The Bud

2010-11-03T22:29:00.000-07:00

I feel like I'm wasting away. Pinch me so I can feel something actually while you're at it punch some sense into me and kick me in line. Lately I've been good at nothing but being pathetic and bribing myself to get my shit together. I dwell on the fact that I always end up second best in everyone agenda when even I put myself second best in my own agenda. Someone needs to motivate me and that person has to be me.

Down On Today

2010-10-14T11:28:00.000-07:00

Its weird how stuff fizzles out. I guess this didn't really fizzle it just stopped but I'm not really upset or angry because it kinda just happened. I'm sure it was never supposed to work out in the first place. I've been trying to write on this thing for a while but by the time I've finished I've just held down the backspace button and went to sleep. I got a new job at the Golden West. I am a lot more happy with that aspect in my life. Working with people you have stuff in common with and actually making money is much more pleasurable. I want to do more falls stuff and i want to perfect a pumpkin seed recipe. I'm currently in class, I cant pay attention per usual and I feel like I'm going to throw up because my anxiety is so bad.

15 Albums Real Fast

2010-09-01T11:42:00.000-07:00

1. Osker: Idle Will Kill

2. Aquabats: Fear vs the Floating Eye of Death

3. The Suicide Machines: Least Worst Of

4. Lifetime: Jerseys Best Dancers

5. The Ergs: Jerseys Best Prancers

6. Kid Dynamite: Shorter Faster Louder

7. Quicksand: Slip

8. Black Flag: Family Man

9. Jawbreaker: Dear You

10. Descendents: Everything Sucks

11. Bob Dylan: Blood on the Tracks

12. Bruce Springstein: Born in the USA

13. Wipers: Is This Real?

14: American Nightmare: Self Titled

15: Counting Crows: August and Everything After

It's Still Summer Somewhere

2010-08-30T22:13:00.000-07:00

School starts tomorrow and I am the last thing from excited. I have to tell myself this means no more traveling, no more staying out late and no more drinking during the week. I can do this! I haven't updated in a while so let me recap on a couple good times in the past week. Saw Kid Dynamite and almost peed my pants. It was perfect and Josh was there which made it even better. Best Friends Day was not as good as all the other ones but I still had a good time and Propangandhi ruled. Savannah was beautiful as usual. I spent my time during the day drinking lemonade, biking around and watching the cargo ships come in. I tried to keep to myself only because I need to start taking care of myself more. I played pool with Matt tonight and actually beat him for the first time. I'm going to become a pool master! OH YEAH! Thanks for that nasty letter asshole. Burn in hell.

Note to self: Try red wine mixed with cola

Over The Edge

2010-08-16T12:51:00.000-07:00

I wish someone didn't hurt you to the point where you can't help but hurt everyone else because i think you and me would be good together. I wish you wouldn't put this distance between us and I wish there wasn't a distance between us and I wish I could believe you when you tell me you care about me. One day I won't be waiting for you because I will realize you will always be broken.

Three Miles Down

2010-07-30T13:56:00.000-07:00

Ive been trying to leave this city as much as possible this summer, Ive been trying to live underwater. Its been working out great. I went to the beach with my parents this week and returned with two new pet Hermet crabs! Hopefully heading south next week. Its weird, before this summer I went nowhere but north and now I just cant manage to get myself to go there. Anywhere seems better then Baltimore though, this city's dragging me down.

How It Should Be (Sha Sha)

2010-07-24T08:43:00.000-07:00

I MET BEN KWELLER LAST NIGHT! Everyone at the bar sang Silly Girl to me, what a great time! Making some vegan indian food today, going to see the Red Dons (Ex. Observers), rollerderby, then crashing at a cabin in the woods with some favorite people. Life is more then good, its great.

Closer Then You Think

2010-07-20T21:07:00.000-07:00

Having friends all over the country rules! Best two days with Flordia and California. Me constantly being in motion really wears me out though. I need to stay in and I need to take a nap. I went on a mini vactation with Matt last week to visit my favorites in the south. I think i really hurt someones feelings unintentional and if i could i would take back that whole day and hang out with him instead. Hes really great but I once again fell for your tricks. One day I am going to learn and one day you are going to learn. My anxiety really bad right now and Pete and Pete sounds like the perfect cure.

Oh and Did I mention! Via Punk Mail, all the way from the arm pit of america, I reseved a bag I've been waiting for for 3 years filled with rocks from the ocean, a letter, a CD and books of his wonderful poetry. I am a lucky girl to have you in my life!

Fuck What Fireworks Stand For

2010-07-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

In the backseat of a car coming home I thought about how pointless everything is. I'm staring at the road; pebbles, rocks and stone. How much effort everyone puts into pointless acts. I put no effort into anything and I contribute nothing. I followed in my seat as the car drove with my head stuck out the window. Car shadows passing by and people passing by and peoples products passing by. All meaningless to me. All property that value in nothing compared to the entire world, all specks. The fireworks that went off amazed me more then the meaningless conversations I had with people I will never care about. And I really need to go to bed so I can work and pay for stuff the inevitable means nothing. I am tired.

Okay

2010-07-03T13:57:00.000-07:00

I have no idea what I want anymore and I have no idea where to go from here. Im pretty sure im not really good at anything, maybe I need to think harder. Fireworks tomorrow with no one to watch them with. I can still have fun. I have all I really need, right?

Bringin' It Backwards

2010-07-01T12:53:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to be okay with staying home sometimes and being by myself. I feel like most poeple love alone time but I can't stand it. So today, I am sitting at home and I guess I've already accomplished a lot already. I started screen printing again, I almost forgot how much fun it was. Last night the Orioles won (5 homeruns!!!) and Bepstien put us on the big screen which was awesome and it was free bobblehead night! Grabbed a drink with Kevin and hung out at his recording studio for a while. I love coming home and waking up Brittany, she says the cutest stuff when shes sleep walking.

Tonight Flicks on the Hill starts. Life rules get into it.

Ashtray Monument

2010-06-30T14:05:00.000-07:00

Hiding out for a while. Amy Lula's home tonight life automatically gets better. But I already feel better, but maybe thats only because I'm really good at not having feelings. The past 3 nights have been fantastic. I'm about to go to the O's game with Dan/Matt/Kevin and then doing crosswords with Amy at the bar. Tonights looking real good. I'm thinking about having a 4th of July party, anyone want to come over after the fireworks? Who am I kidding, no one reads this!

Loosing Streak

2010-06-26T23:29:00.001-07:00

And to think I had trust issues before. I am at a new level of insanity, a level at which I didn't know was possible to obtain. Bite my tongue even though you never did that for me. You have single handedly and successfully turned my drama free life upside down. You did something friends don't do and then lied about it to me. No sense of loyalty and no respect towards me. I will not talk shit because thats not my style. I just need everyone to understand why I'm so sad lately and leaving my house doesn't sound like fun, its because I feel like I might let other people like her into my life. But Savannah sounds like the perfect town for me. A fountain of beers, four square till the sun rises and holding hands running through sprinklers. People who keep up and people who don't ever get tired and people who are always there. Maybe its the solid click thing that has me or maybe its the boys southern charm or I think its this dog named Bessie who falls asleep perfectly aligned with me and this dog Lucy who chases what ever I throw her way. I should blame myself for this fall of events, I forgive and forget to easily and I couldn't say no to you. You're the problem too and I know I don't have it the worst, head up and grow up. Courtesy and reflex.

Early Summer

2010-05-16T23:53:00.000-07:00

Im stuck in between my past and my future. Not in a I'm confused way but more in a literal sense. I really need to go on a trip by myself, I really need to get out of this city. A nice long car ride, a sunny day at the beach and a hotel room so I dont have to make my bed. More importantly I can not stand my ground with you, I cant get mad. I can get upset but not mad. You know this, you know you can walk all over me. So make this easier on both of us and get out of my life. I have 2 papers and 4 finals left before Im free all summer long. Im trying to make the most of this summer which will include as much hiking/swimming/driving/biking as possible. I'm trying to make it last.

Never a Reason Not to Party

2010-05-10T10:42:00.000-07:00

What I need is more positive people in my life. I need to be motivated because I have trouble motivating myself. I had a great weekend, I delivered flowers which ruled, soo many crying moms! It was Louies birthday so we went to Westchester to a party at Bams house, VERY FUNNY. This is the last week of school, crunch time. I have so much work to do no time to do it. Only one more month with shitty roommates, I seriously think im going to get stabbed while I'm sleeping. Tulsa and Jess move in a month to Savannah, most of the time I wish I was going with them, im going to be so bored. Well this was a whole scattered mess of nothing that I didn't go into detail about for reason I can not explain.

P.S. YOU! Yeah you, the only one that actually reads this. I miss you.

To The Kill

2010-05-04T09:43:00.000-07:00

Mistake after mistake after mistake. That's all I'm good at. I just got back from a bike ride with Angus, its too cute! He sits in my front pocket with his hands over the side and loves life. He really has the best life, sleeping in a pouch all day and eating cheese in the evening. So last night Tulsa, Lauren and I went to the Angels and Airwaves/Say Anything show because my friend Mikey is doing drumtec for them. Lets just talk about how awful Tom sounds now, that mans voice was not ment to sing serious songs. I honestly couldn't handle it. I could go into more detail about how big of douche bags Say Anything are but I think you already know. Currently sitting in my room with goggles on listening to the Violent Femmes. I'm such a loser.

Today I need to:
-Clean Angus's cage
-Write women studies paper/ 2 journals
-Write government paper
-Write educational psychology paper
-Chem Homework
-Grocery shopping
-Shower
-Make a mix tape
-Switch Comcast bill
-Get people to fill out rent papers

Situationist Comedy

2010-05-02T21:30:00.000-07:00

I havn't writen in here for a while. I need to start again I'm so lost as of lately. Mostly because I don't talk to anyone I just keep what im thinking inside. But the last thing I need is someone to depend on me. I've been traveling more recently, down south. I met a boy, he really is great. Im really confused with how i feel. Its been over a year and i still can not let anyone into my head without freeking out. So i freeked out the other day, did some stupid shit and said some stupid things. If i knew how he felt about me this would be a lot easier or maybe not. I hope i dont screw this up. In other news i have a job interview at the golden west next week, cross your fingers. Nate moved out today, we couldnt say goodbye so he just left me a soda. i am now stuck in a house with no one i like.

S.S. Exploder

2009-11-20T00:40:00.001-08:00

Its one thing after another and I've come to this point were I'm actually immune to it. Every thing's alright and I'm alright. To be honest, I'm just glad I'm not trapped in some shitty city that I hate surrounded by bullshit I'm trying to get away from. I like where I'm at but for once I need to start trying harder to do what I actually want to do. I need to do something for myself. Tonight was good. I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.I'm not upset.

christ

2009-08-08T22:25:00.000-07:00

Fuck blog whats up. So i moved out and life is real. I have a job and i pay for shit like laundry detergent andtoilet paper. Ive come to realize a lot. Fuck everyone who thinks i can be a million places at oncebecause i cant. Come see me and stop bitching. Number 2 all boys are shit stains so im done. Im donebeing upset and im done trying to hard. fuck off. fuck people walking all over me all the time. number 3 life rules party hard and stay cool. i just punched nate in the face and i hope i rebroke his nose. also i hate cucumbers and the yellow part of eggs. the friends i have that love me are great other ones can go suck a dick i hate your guts. getting these mosquito bites were not worth it at all. figure out what you want in life and go for it. doont string people along for the ride. kates in seatle james is in alanta and sams in tyworld and im left with a couple great people. this is me being a hermet and not leaving my room anymore. goodnight.

I'm Feeling Slightly Violent

2009-05-23T23:28:00.000-07:00

I feel like im not good enough for anyone. I feel like i will never be good enough for anyone. I will always be one step below and its driving me crazy. I move out on friday. Im scared. Fuck im scared. Im going to miss my house, im never going to sleep in that room again. ive slept there since i was 4. Im never going to walk downstairs to my dad flipping pancakes. Growing up. Fuck. Its what i need, i need a change of pase. Im tired, my parents rule. Everyone stop whinnying that i havent been hanging out and come hang out with me. Actually, everyone needs to leave me the fuck alone. FUCK.

Confessions

2009-05-20T19:32:00.000-07:00

I am terrified.

Safe Tonight

2009-05-05T21:44:00.000-07:00

Today ruled. My WATU boys rule and i love them all very much. Wish josh would have come down, pretty worried about him actually. Called Trevor and it was really nice to talk to him, miss him a ton. Really wish he would come down and visit soon but I don't think thats going to happen. I have a lot of homework to do and no time to do it. Its just these stupid silly things that keep going through my head and i really just wish i could feel like that again. Also just really tired of meeting a ton of douche bags all the time. I just want to be happy, but i am happy, just not that kind of happy. Makes sense right? RIGHT!

Sometimes I say things I dont mean
and sometimes I can be a really shitty person.

Silly Girl

2009-04-29T18:17:00.000-07:00

This is silly. Everything's silly. You're silly. I'm silly. My friends are silly. My parents are silly. Work is silly. The internet is silly. The weather is silly. Playing games is silly.

But really, this is really silly.

Every Everything

2009-04-28T19:10:00.000-07:00

BOOYAH! Today ruledd Lunch crew and crabs at Tim and Linseys with a bunch of friends. Cliffs tomorrow!? Golden West Thursday after the show. CCAS Friday, Sum 41 saturday, Cursive Sunday. Shits real.

friday if your not busy!
A billion Earnies
The Best of the Worst
The Trites

2009-04-27T23:29:00.001-07:00

Its this empty feeling in the pit of your stomach. Kind of like when your going down a hill in the car. I havn't been eating at all. I really havent been sleeping either. I only get like this at night, during the day everythings great.

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Hoods up

2009-04-27T21:10:00.000-07:00

+Orioles
+Beer
+Magicians
+Swimming
+Hot weather
+Sound and Fury
+Good Friends
+Good times
+BBQ's
+Frisby Street
+Good Luck
+/-Moving?
-Hipsters
-Work

Honk & Wave

2009-04-26T20:44:00.001-07:00

HI, EVERYTHING'S GREAT!

Waiting Room

2009-04-23T21:44:00.001-07:00

Tonight RULED. Sick Fix played so I drove Michelle who is awesome. We chatted the whole time about everything and anything and it was exactly what i needed. The show was so good, so much moshing so many friends. I'm sore and sleepy and i have to work soon. Made a mix cd but you're busy making them for other girls so I didn't send it, I'm so tired. Its just sitting there glaring at me. I hope you're as happy as you'd like to be.

The great disapointment

2009-04-22T20:18:00.001-07:00

This anxiety attack was the worst I've ever had. I'm going back to playing video games, doing my math homework and not caring about anyone anymore. Things were better that way. A phone call would be nice.

Things about me most people dont know:

2009-04-21T21:56:00.000-07:00

-I cant fall asleep unless i read Archie Comic Books and my collection well exceeds 1,000
-I was captain of my field hockey and softball team and made all state all 4 years for both
-I only cry when I feel bad for other people
-I have 2 brothers 1 sister and they all hate me
-I am a physics major
-I always act on impulse
-I am an extremely forgiving person
-I am scared of heights
-I collect Pez dispensers
-I listen to The Ergs 90% of the time
-I know every word to every 50cent song
-I wake up at 5 every morning and drink a soda
-I cant fall back asleep unless i talk to someone at 5
-I get headaches when I don't drink soda
-I have night-mares every night
-I like to go dancing
-Hardly anyone knows anything about me
-I feel like i can change people and always end up failing
-I cut my own hair
-I drool a lot when i laugh

Seeing it this way

2009-04-21T19:29:00.000-07:00

The idea of lying to someone to better yourself or your plans is a shitty thing to do. In reality I don't really care, I should care but I don't. I don't really care about anything though. I think there is a huge difference between leisure activities and a hobby and its something people need to realize. Im tired, hopefully moving into the city this summer. Just booked my flight to go to Sound and Fury with Emily who is great and I am so pumped. Went to play tennis with jack today but it ended up raining so we got dinner and talked a bunch. Today I actually realized on numerous occasions that I have a ton of people that actually care about me but i also know that I have a ton of people who said they care about me who really don't. Why am i so caught up in this, I can never keep my mind on anything for more then 2 weeks. I feel pathetic.

Right through you

2009-04-20T20:28:00.001-07:00

Thoughts are running through my head that shouldn't be. Pathetic attempts and ideas that will be useless in the long run. I guess I'm just tired, or confused maybe both. But I do know that you're just fine. I think.

Current

2009-04-19T19:41:00.000-07:00

Strictly dating straight edge dudes from now on. Havent had this much fun in a while. Really stoked. Oh and happy 420! I hope you're stoned out of your mind. Cool.

Silver & Cold

2009-04-18T22:51:00.000-07:00

Saw New Found Glory yesterday, i left bleeding but not nearly as bad as that girl that got her face stomped in by Fat Jack. My car got towed, im glad i have great friends though who helped me get it back. Tonight was pirate day so after work me jack randy and patric went to hang out. Went to some dumb party and came home and now the rest of my night will consist of listing to AFI and thinking. I'm tired of waiting. I'm so sleepy, and heres a silly picture.

Lights, vomit, sound, action

2009-04-15T17:44:00.000-07:00

Slowly feeling better. Nicktape got me banned from the b9 board, not sure what he said but its funny. Went to class today and now im just sitting at home putting my record collection in order. I miss josh more then anyone per usual and most of the time i think hes the only one that actually gives a shit about me. But things are looking better then expected ; ) Cant wait for Friday! HURRY UP!!!

Push my button

2009-04-14T14:04:00.000-07:00

I feel worse, thanks for asking. My lymph nodes are the size of golf balls and my throat is the size of a straw. I cant breath out of my mouth i cant really swallow anything. I'm so hungry, I havent eaten in 2 days. Currently re-reading all the Harry Poters, they always make me feel better on number 4 right now. My Life is at Home by the Promise Ring has been on repeat for days, might be my new favorite song. I'm struggling between whats right and wrong and what I should be feeling. And its stupid and I'm crazy, but you're confusing. And I need to stop.

Really though, if you really want to be with somebody, you should be with them.

Pitter Patter goes my heart

2009-04-13T18:16:00.000-07:00

I've been really sick the past to days. I have been getting hot and cold flashes and my throat is super sore, I'm so sleepy. I just took the hottest bath of my life because i was so cold but in the middle of it i got so hot i had to take a freezing cold shower. Last night i went to the Sick Fix show after work and then over nicks to watch another episode of Freaks and Geeks per usually. And today i went on a dinner date with Andy for pizza and record shopping. Someone bring me soup. School starts tomorrow, I really don't want to go.

Let's go die

2009-04-12T23:13:00.001-07:00

I wish:
-I wasn't so sad
-Pot did not exist
-I thought i was pretty
-Agnostic Front didnt drop off the show
-I didnt have to work so much
-Emily would come to baltimore
-I didnt have nightmares every night
-The Promise Ring would play a show
-I had a plane ticket to Sound of Fury
-I could scream in a band
-Hillary would come home
-You missed me
-It was field hockey season
-I had a sewing machine
-I was going to the bug jar on thursday
-I could have hung out with nick longer tonight
-There was a second season of freaks and geeks

The minor threat principal

2009-04-10T22:05:00.001-07:00

Spring break was fun. It made me realize a lot of stuff and honestly I'm glad I'm over this situation. On another note: When something is in control of your life to a point of rather doing that then being with your friends its pathetic and sad. I honestly had no idea it was that bad and you need to realize it is.

Literaly

2009-04-09T11:28:00.001-07:00

burnt out.

Three Minutes Wasted

2009-04-06T20:16:00.000-07:00

The funeral was nice, a lot of people came and I cried the entire time. Friday went to the Sick Fix show in D.C. and went over nicks afterwords. We played Yatzee and watch Freaks and Geeks. Saturday i booked the Hostage Calm show but Phil came and took over so i could go see paint it black in PA. Jake Kate and Chris came with me and it ruled. Sunday Chris visited me at work which was awesome and i went to the werewolves show at the art space. Went over jacks and then went to the golden west with kate amy garwood and chris. FIN.

This is hands down one of the dumbest ideas I've ever had.

Sonnet

2009-03-31T13:20:00.000-07:00

I've learned that big deep breaths hold tears back in public.

Saturday if you're not busy:

(way to lazy to fix it)

Black Box

2009-03-30T21:26:00.001-07:00

Shittiest feeling ever. This will be the first funeral I attend and im going to ball my eyes out the whole time. It gets worse when i think about how my grandma and my mom must feel. Loosing the person you've been with everyday, loosing the person thats been with you since day one. Awful. I really cant talk about this because i loose it every time i think about it.

Thanks everyone who's been really supportive and what not, really helps to show who your real friends are. Nick talked to me on the phone forever and played online games with me and hes the best! We are going to the Cherry Blossom Festival in D.C. on Saturday and I cant wait. Now im going to bury my head in Harry Potter books all night.

A better place a better time

2009-03-30T14:45:00.000-07:00

My grandpa died and now I'm a fucking mess.

Say Something True

2009-03-29T19:46:00.000-07:00

You should never underestimate the power of the cheese curl because I have concluded that they are SUPER STRONG!

Houses and Billboards

2009-03-28T12:03:00.001-07:00

The Aquabats are playing Bamboozel which means I have to go now! I dont want to work tonight, actually theres only one thing I really want to do tonight which is have Nick come over and watch a movie with me. Glad I sold my United Blood ticket Im having a better weekend here ;D. This time last month I was so happy and I don't think I've been happy since then until now. Deer Tick last night ruled and did a Lonestar cover and I'm pretty sure I was the only one who was super pumped on it. Also, as of latley ive been trying to consume less meat and it is going very well. I haven't been eating it for more then one meal a day, I'm pretty sure a ton of my friends will be happy about this. Been taken to many naps lately and have been trying to stay away from the computer as much as possible.

Next Saturday @ CCAS:
Make Do & Mend
Hostage Calm
Cringe
Animal Poison

Change of Pace

2009-03-27T16:39:00.000-07:00

I just chopped my bangs up, oh well.

O.D. on Pop

2009-03-27T13:08:00.000-07:00

+Got a hot date

All Ive been doing lately...

Teenage Terror

2009-03-24T19:04:00.000-07:00

Lately, this is how I look.

Turn it Around

2009-03-24T09:02:00.001-07:00

Just finished my mid-term in computer and now I have 30 minutes to blow before Lunch Crew. Bepsteins show ruled!!! Me and Nick filmed it but more like i filmed it because hes arm kept hurting :D Ssssss haha. I think we are hanging out on Friday, eating cereal and watching a movie, which I am pretty stoked on. Every thing's a mess right now though but i think pretty soon its all going to come together. I'm fine i guess, just a ton of shitty things are going on and I don't know how to handle them. And this boot on my leg isn't helping anything.

P.S. Good Clean Fun Christmas 7'' is awful!

The Process of Belief

2009-03-23T15:14:00.000-07:00

So I just visited my Grandpa in the hospital for the first time. I stood there and cried for 30 minutes and walked out. Did not say one word. I need to learn how to handle bad situations better.

Million Perfect Dub

2009-03-21T21:31:00.001-07:00

So hear I am. Stuck with a box of vegan cookies and an extra Alkaline Trio/Saves the Day ticket. It just hit me, I really can't handle this.

Start Today

2009-03-21T13:10:00.001-07:00

So josh got here yesterday at 12 and woke me up from my nap. We hung out all day and went record shopping. It was also free Ritas day so we hit that up twice but we forgot to go to the 3rd time and get our arnold palmer Ritas mix. Got dinner at One World Cafe and i got a Falfel and it was delicious. Tried to walk around the inner harbor but it was way to cold. Went to the show and then came back and watched Angus but we both fell asleep half way threw. Im so glad he came, just what i needed. That was the first time i had seen him since we got in that huge fight. Might go visit him over spring break since I'm not going to Rochester anymore. Josh is the best dude because I know he really cares about me. I fell comfortable telling him anything and when i talk to him i know hes actually listening to me. Great friend. I just got off work and tonight should be really good :D.

Firecracker

2009-03-20T07:20:00.001-07:00

Just got off work! Josh will be here in 2 hours! Which means record shopping all day! Got the best package from Nick last night at the show which included but not limited too 5 shirts, a mix & other secretes. Bebstein i know your jealous! Shows the past 2 nights have ruled, My friends rule, Mariya's home, Cro-Mags tonight. Hanging out with nick tomorrow night maybe?! Shits good right now. I need to take a nap!

Force of Habit

2009-03-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

Am i that gullible? Really angela. Why would you want someone who already did that to you once? When your in a relationship you should have a feeling of wanting to talk to someone and wanting to get to know them. Being worried about them when there sad and not ignoring the fact. I dont want to be with someone who doesnt care about me. I want someone who thinks about me through out the day and tells me that. I just wish you didn't lie to me. I'm done, looks like im not going to Rochester this weekend. FML.

Out of Touch

2009-03-18T21:46:00.000-07:00

Just had an anxiety attack. I wish you didn't lie to me, I knew this would happen.

Postmark My Compass

2009-03-18T20:28:00.001-07:00

Im sleeping, Im confused, Im lazy. I dont feel like putting any effort into anything if no one else is. GAHH I have a midterm tomorrow, I think ill do good, then im going to Girl Cave in DC for the MAX Leveign Masshisteri show. Maryias home!!! Thank fucking god. What to do, what to do. Oh hey, come out to this show i booked if your not busy.

Sour Grapes

2009-03-17T09:04:00.000-07:00

+Canceled a date I had today
+BOP lunch crew in 20 min
+Class ended early so I'm bullshitting
-You're confusing
-Have 5 show flyers to make
-Foot hurts.
-I need to stop believing everything everyone tells me
+getting nicer out
+Josh is coming down for Cro-Mags on Friday & im pretty sure he made me cookies
+Cro-mags, Psyched to die, Bad Seed, pulling teeth, Deep Sleep
-Ignoring me isnt helping
-Need to loose weight
-Mariya gets home today!
+Masshisteri tomorrow night
-Fix it!
+Expecting a package from nick in the mail
-Really sad

Smile on me

2009-03-16T18:31:00.000-07:00

Philly was really good. Went with Kate and Tim, drive down ruled Kate was the best DJ. Checked out the Radical bookstore and got a Terror 7'' (i think that was the last one i needed?) Hung out in philly for a bit and went to some vegan Chinese restaurant. Didn't eat anything because i felt like i was going to throw up i was so nervous and the food looked so gross. Got to the show pretty early so i mingled and saw old friends. Got to see Liz real sad she didnt feel good because thats my PIB mosh buddy! Sarah was grumpy, Hollis being goofy as usual and Andy being great! Witch Hunt was boring as hell and paint it black ruled even though there was a bunch of shitty meat heads and kate got a black eye, had another Face to face sing along with Dr.Dan right before the fucking bouncers pulled me over the barrier. The venue blew so I left before Propagandhi. I get over to see Clare Danes, Trevor met me outside. Seeing him was the best feeling in the world. All those kids rule, there set ruled mainly because they were having an awesome time. New songs are so good even though there sad. Polly played that show also so i got to see a bunch of Baltimore kids. Me and Trevor were side by side the whole night and it ruled. I missed him and his squishy butt a lot. Ride home we were so sleepy. Got that waffle house though! Waffle house employes are the nicest people in the world. Power was out so tim let me borrow his Mine light to get in the bathroom. RULED. I went to school and worked all day my gandpas in the hospital again so im sad. But at least I have my T back!

Shout out loud

2009-03-16T07:46:00.001-07:00

Well, I'm trying not to get my hopes up.

Dead from the neck up

2009-03-13T15:27:00.000-07:00

D4 last night ruled. Got to drink with them before the show which also RULED. I have successfully completed another one of my life goals. Hurt my foot even more but i couldn't help it, when i hear putting the f back in art i go crazy! They tried to put a cast on it but i told them i just wanted a wrap. Its going to just take a lot longer to heal. Going to see Less Than Jake tonight, then Paint it Black and Propagandhi tomorrow. Oh tomorrow, tomorrow could go really good or really bad because Clarie Dances is playing in Philly too and i think we are going to go see them. Kate and Tim are coming with me, really pumped. I get to see Liz and I don't think I've seen her since This is Hardcore and tommy who i haven't seen since january. Also met a boy last night and I'm kinda gidy. Hope he calls me. Oh and I had a really strange phone conversation last night and im not sure if i should take it seriously or just assume those things were only said because he was drunk. But all this doesnt matter because most importantly Tim Burk and Jay Insult are in town!

Fix Me

2009-03-11T21:09:00.000-07:00

FUCK MY LIFE. I have to pee so bad and cant get back up the stairs. Dove into the abise during Paint it Black and now i cant walk. Mom yelled so im just going to go to bed instead of the hospital which i will do in the morning. If i miss the dillinger four show tomorrow im going to be so bummed. Also got a bloody nose and think a toe of my right foot is broken. But me and Dan Yemin had a head pressed together sing a long so i guess every thing's not that bad. But i did miss Propagandi. Thank you klipa and asian ryan for carrying me to my car! So bummed though, I just know im going to have a cast on my foot by tomorrow night. MY FOOT FUCKING KILLS.

Shell Game Redux

2009-03-11T14:06:00.001-07:00

Im not sure if that was such a good idea, and I'm not sure if its going to happened today or tomorrow and im not sure if i will ever know because im not sure if you will bring it up. In other news I can not sit still! I'm going to mosh so hard to Memorial Day. FTW SHORTS WEATHER!

I'll update this more after the show. BOOYAHHHHHHH.

Best Imitation of myself

2009-03-10T20:09:00.001-07:00

I miss these two ladies a whole ton of a lot!

Today was exactly what i needed. After the birthday party at BOP tonight with Kate i went to see Title Fight/Fireworks. RULED. First crowd crawl in a while just getting prepared for tomorrow night. So i get back to my car and with the magnets thrown all over it, as much as i say i hate it, i actually think it rules.Oh and thanks tim for getting the safe parking spot for me! Everyone i wanted to see was there tonight ;D So the kid in Title Fight asked me to go to prom with him, CANT WAIT. Jamie rules and i talked to him tonight for a really long time. Plus he has a Jawbreaker tattoo so i am automatically in love with him. Got to hang out with kate today, always a good time she really talks a lot of sense into my head which is good for me. Me and her made hillary a picture letter which i really need to scan, anyone with a scanner? AGH Maryia get home! Hillary get home! Lunch crew today and i met Mikey's new girlfriend, what a sweetheart! TIM BURK IN 2 DAYS! Can't sleep tonight, its like Christmas eve. PAINT IT BLACK TOMORROW!

Thank you Ben Folds, You always cheer me up!

New girl

2009-03-09T20:29:00.000-07:00

Hey girl. You are a fucking god damn son of a bitch and I hope one day this stupid game your playing will fucking bite you in the ass. You have no room leading someone on and effecting other peoples lives just because your sad and lonely and you hate seeing other people happy. What you did was rude and I blame you for him being unhappy. I blame you for him making bad decisions.

Think this is about you? Then go slam your head against a wall.

Night Windows

2009-03-09T17:34:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel like i will never have that solid group of friends. I will always continuously bounce around from group to group. I just feel out of the loop sometimes. I wish me and Trevor would have not made everything go so fast, its hard. I want to start over! Hymph. Fix it fix it fix it.Why cant it always be like the first week. Now its the negative first week and its awkward. I dont think i would be so sad if i didnt keep thinking about valentines day. I have not really ate anything in 2 days, I tried but I keep throwing it up. I'm not physically sick, my head hurts. Josh is visiting on Monday which should be nice, he can always cheer me up but hes usually the reason I'm sad. I am excited for Wednesday, having Dan Yemin screaming in my face always makes me feel better and a pizza date with a new boy sounds nice. Me and Jake are trying so hard to drink with D4 on Thursday, that would be amazing. Saturday Ehh, i get to see Liz and i guess I'm going to crash at Tommy's now, hopefully i catch the Clarie Danes set.

Funny story! Last night i work up to get a soda and on my way back downstairs i totally ran my head into the edge of the door and fell backwards and now have a giant bruise on my forhead. great. Something start going my way please! I guess I'm going to be writing in here more often because everything is not going so smoothly, but i really don't think anyone reads this.

Apple Shampoo

2009-03-08T21:03:00.000-07:00

I worked a 15 hour shift today! My feet hurt so bad because my shoes are to small and I'm covered in milk. So many people came to visit me and brought me stuff, I love my friends. This boy Andy also came in, i dont really know him to well but i see him at shows, he asked me to get pizza with him before the PIB show, hymm! I'm really considering going on a road trip with kate to Ohio i think it would rule. Mariya gets home in 8 days!!! She is exactly what i need in my life right now. I just want to go with her to the paper moon, get a Pop-Eye Melt and talk about how much boys suck. I finally sent something I've been meaning to send for weeks, and i returned the surprise train tickets i bought to Rochester for 2 weeks from now. I feel good na na na na na nana!

You look like I need a drink

2009-03-07T22:33:00.000-08:00

Today was in general a positive day minus the getting dumped part. You have to take the good with the bad right?I did write a song out of it, its called 'Busy Getting Dumped' its basically about me siting at home all week being sad. Do you know what else sucks, is having to change all your status or a million websites. Kate rules and we had such a good time making a big joke out of everything. I feel like change is completly relevant and necessary in trying to pursue what ever it is you want to and if your not willing to do that then your not going to get anywhere. Not feeling comfortable is not an excuse sometimes you just have to act on impulse and want feels right. Not what your leaving behind. But i also feel like theres something that i dont know about! sneaky sneaky. fuck this goodnight world maybe i can fall asleep for once but i will not be making any more 5:00 phone calls, i refuse to let myself!

180 emotional ollie

2009-03-07T16:52:00.001-08:00

Me and Trevor broke up. I was really upset earlier but Jack just puts stuff into prospective for me. Why cant all boys be more like jack? Im okay Im okay Im okay. It just sucks i legitimately liked him a ton. I guess he really just couln't handle the distance and our relation ship was really fast. Im still not sure how to be his friend becuase i never was. A week ago it was perfect and now BAM its over, time and distance are a funny thing. I really shouldnt have my happiness structured around someone else. Heres to me being lonley again forever and heres to me not trusting a boy ever again. I really let my gaurd down in this situation. But I guess i have a lot of good stuff going for me. My friends rule, Im in school, i have a great family, so many good shows next week! I feel like if he lived in baltimore this situation would have been completly different. When I'm with him, theres honestly nothing about him i could complain about. I guess that lemuria song 'In a world of ghosts' really describes the situation for me even though i hate that band, great song. Im a jacks right now with bepstein and Tereasa. There really making me feel better. Its just every time someone says kitten, I am seconds away from crying.

Head hurts hands on fire

2009-03-06T17:25:00.000-08:00

I have been pretty sad all week, not like you would know or anything. You really shouldn't expect to get anything out of a situation unless you put effort back into it. I fielded grounders with my dad today and it ruled. Cross your fingers I get this job tomorrow. I'm going to bed.

P/S:Josh uploaded me the Osker album and i feel like its something everyone needs. Its basically Los Angeles melodic punk rock. You know that band jamming out in Crazy/Beautiful? Well thats Osker! Enjoy and make sure to listen to strangled, one of my favorite songs of all time.
http://www.mediafire.com/?wdaomyzzcnf

Nervous Reaction

2009-03-05T17:23:00.000-08:00

+Next week is the most beautiful week for music, EVER.
-Work all weekend
-Tryouts on saturday
+My Offsides shirt finally came in!
+Joey Connor and Ed were in town so we hung out a lot
+Carpenter Ant & Vicious records from ccas
+Kate talks rule & i love hanging out with her
+Maybe getting a punk girl place this summer
-Not getting the time of day
-No money
+Kats having fun a jakes
+Frisbee house kittens are so cute
-Car/room need to be cleaned
-Need to loose weight
+got my nails done with my mommy
-Cant find an Osker record if my life depended on it
-Miss old friends

Bringin It Down

2009-03-02T18:41:00.000-08:00

Trevor left this morning and I am so sad. I had literally the best weekend I've had in a long time. We went to some partys, a show, lazer tag we watched the little rascals and just hung out. Since Trevors vegan my mom thinks he can only eat fruit so she sent him home with a nascar lunch box full of fruit it was adorable. Cat just moved into Jakes which rules, I think shes going on a date with nate tomorrow which is even more awesome. Last night we played lazer tag for patricks 22nd birthday. Apparently on friday and saturday nights its unlimited play for 13$$, cant wait for a huge lazer tag hangout again. Also can not wait for next week, PIB x 3, Propagandie x 3, Dillinger Four, Bouncing souls, less then jake, witch hunt, BEAUTIFUL. Also got a great Big D/Melt Banana split from celebrated that rules for free, well not really but tony gave me his jacket to sew and in return i get a couple records. I hope you didnt waste your time reading this and i hope that picture made you throw up.

break

2009-02-25T18:12:00.000-08:00

fuck my anxiety,

i am going insane.

1)fuck you

2)fuck you

3)miss you

4)fuck you

5)your a bitch

6)love you

7)fuck you

8)your okay

I'm so tired.

2009-02-23T23:52:00.001-08:00

1) a picture of you in your room

2) a picture with someone you actually dont like

3)a picture of you very drunk

4) a picture of you onyour favorite holiday

5)the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form.

6)a picture of you in one of your favourite outfits.

7)a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.

8)\a picture of a night you regret...

9)a picture of you truly being yourself.

10)a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.

11) a picture of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it wasn't.

12)a picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is.

12) a picture of you when you were anything but happy...

13)a picture of you when you were a different person than you are now.

14)a picture of how you'd like the world to see you.

15)a picture of you with someone you love.

16)a picture that describes how you'd like to spend every day.

17) a picture that makes your heart smile.

18)a picture that makes your heart hurt.

19)A picture of one of the best days/nights of your life.

20)the most recent picture of you

Jurassic Park

2009-02-17T20:19:00.000-08:00

Best Valentines Day EVER! Me and Trevor danced in the dark with just a lava lamp on to Weird Al and he got on one knee and asked me to be his girlfriend. I really really really like him a lot. I have never met anyone with as much energy and goofiness as me until now, I feel so comfortable around him and he makes me laugh more then anyone else . Long distances suck so I really hope this works. Other then all these butterfly's in my tummy ive been trying to do well in school. I have a calender, I'm being organized and i am trying not to throw my schoolwork all over the car. Made vegan cookies at Jacks tonight with greg, patric, & randi yummm. Really pump on the shows i booked that are coming up too Make Do and Mend/Stay Sharp, A billion Earnies/The Best of the worst, Fireworks/We are the Union. If anyone wants to make fliers you're more then welcome too! My parents are on vacation, i hope there having a ton of fun because they deserve it. Going to see Coraline with Jake and Geoff on thursday and I got an awesome Babysitting job this weekend making $$$$. I dont get to see trevor for 2 weeks so I guess im going to go be grumpy and play animal crossing.

HiFive City!

2009-02-12T08:41:00.000-08:00

Dear Quarry,
I will be swimming in you soon enough!

Hell yeah, this 70 degree weather in February RULES. I'm just going to pretend yesterday never happened, just an extremely awkward experience in general. This weekend looks so good, the 2nd week in march looks beautiful. I have been listing to Voo Doo Glow Skulls a ton, reminds me of the summer. Oh yeah you, yeah you don't ruin this for me, I haven't been this happy since June. BOOYAH!

Good good things

2009-02-10T08:21:00.000-08:00

Lately I've been smiling a lot. Come here so we can play mad-libs!

I melt with you.

2009-02-08T19:11:00.000-08:00

I Am quite smitten I would say & I have a Valentine after all! I wish I could turn 10 minuets into 10 hours and everything would be great for that much longer. I hope I'm not getting my hopes up, i really don't think I am. Help!, I need to switch my mind into school mode, but how cute is this!

Sucker Punch

2009-02-04T19:49:00.000-08:00

Bummed cuz the first time in 5 years I don't have a valentine. But I did see Kate tonight and shes hilarious and we had a great talk and a great time and shes my favorite! She also makes me really all giddy about something that proubley wont even happen, hymph. Schools okay, i still hate it but maybe not as much as last semester. Some stupid girls in my women studies class thought being a feminist ment wearing combat boots, not shaving your legs and hating boys, hahahaha. I took everything off my computer yesterday and re-booted it. Works like brand new. Tonight should be good, rewatching the trilogy for the millionth time and passing out with my archie comics.

Brainwascht

2009-02-02T21:25:00.001-08:00

I cant understand anything my physics teacher is saying (worst lisp ever) so i spent the whole class writing a letter. I really need to do good this semester so you better not let me get off track, all of you! Tomorrow is the first day of spring lunch crew and it just so happens to be free grand slam at Denny's day! Also next year i would really like to have a ground hogs day party, i feel like its the most unappreciated day of the year!My computers on the fritz and its going to die soon, i cant use it unless its plug in because the battery died today. But good news is when i ate at towson today with lauren they had the omelet bar and i have never ever passed up the omelet bar. My guinea pig has been eating so much lettuce lately and i have been attempting to eat healthier. The Get Up Kids: Valentine has been on repeat all day. The warmer it gets the happier i get.

From a whisper to a scream

2009-02-01T18:56:00.000-08:00

+Super bowl party tonight was fun
+Playing Tin can telephone with Kate is great
-I hate all boys
+Frisby House cat had kittens!
-School starts tomorrow
+Lunch crew starts tuesday
+Have been watching SO many movies
-Work way to much
+The golden west
-Car needs to be cleaned
-Bike needs to be rode
-Really tired everytime i hang out
-miss you
+Getting better at not missing you
+my bloody valentine in 3D!
+Jakes the best bestfriend in the world
+Getting closer to summer everyday

If you don't.

2009-01-29T08:28:00.000-08:00

...and that is hands down one of the shittiest feelings I have EVER felt.

Kick Your Head In

2009-01-23T13:20:00.000-08:00

I went to inauguration from Monday to Tuesday, it was crowded, cold, and tiering. Not worth it in the slightest. I haven't been very busy, work is cutting hours so i only had 25 this week. Fucked up show last night ruled, always so good live. I still hate boys and i still hate distance and i still hate not knowing what anyones thinking. I'm tired and i need more honest people in my life, not ones to screw with my head.

Today I'm listing to the Riverdales non-stop.

Guillotine

2009-01-21T22:46:00.000-08:00

I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS. I CANT HANDLE THIS.

Insert name here.

2009-01-18T14:40:00.000-08:00

I'm happy. He was an asshole and I was a cunty whore and I'm glad hes my friend again because i missed him a lot. In a way we were both slippery snakes. Some stuff still looks dumpy though..

Malfunction

2009-01-10T11:10:00.000-08:00

I need to mind my own business, sorry.

Sowing season

2009-01-09T12:42:00.000-08:00

In general everyone needs to:
-be nicer and respect others feelings.
-stop acting on impulse when others are involuntarily involved in your decision.
-calm down

Also, really pissed integrity's sold out and I don't have a ticket, I need a credit card.

First song side one.

2009-01-07T21:57:00.000-08:00

Today I found out that I can fall in love in 2.8 seconds,

Run the other way

2009-01-06T11:44:00.000-08:00

I went to the space last night to see Plague Land and missed them because i left early so I wouldn't miss force fed at The Corpse Fortress but got there to late. And I think this is how I treat everything in life with the thought that theres always something better going on, someone better to meet and I leave things behind that could have been great. Can't wait for Brick to get off tour, really want to see Nate.

Lamplight

2009-01-04T23:36:00.000-08:00

Until recently I've realized everything is fine the way it is. I don't like the word content and I feel like its a very obscure idea. I am not content, I am okay. My vinyl and flannel collections are getting huge and the people I've been hanging out with lately are better influence. Hillary left for Costa Rica today and I miss her face already. Really wish plans would stop falling through too but can't wait for The Best of the Worst show on saturday.

Burned out in a jar

2009-01-03T11:05:00.000-08:00

I love waking up at 3:30 to go to work only to find out my car got egged. I'm running on 3 hours of sleep, its cold and now I have to go to the car wash and scrub my car. I planned on coming home popping in The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants Two, making a sandwich and taking a nap before the show. Now I'm grumpy. Thank you asshole teenagers with nothing better to do, thanks for ruining my day.

Seafoam green

2009-01-01T23:37:00.000-08:00

Quote a song that sums up your year:

I brush my teeth until they break
Until I start bleeding
So when I smile I'll know
I'm almost good enough for you

Clean Slate

2009-01-01T08:54:00.000-08:00

200h8

January: This was a bad month until I met Harris. He had a red hair and a big beard and I was super in love. Also I started listening to The Ergs.

February: Fighting with the roommate, living at Towson was awful. Harris took the greyhound to visit me every weekend. Found out my Grandpa had Cancer.

March: Went jogging and climbed trees with Nathan and Andrew during the week. Hung out in Richmond on weekends and got a new bike. School was not happening.

April: Living situation was at its worst and I got really depressed. Did some stupid things and really hurt Harris. I quit my 2 year long job at Five Guys.

May: All I remember about May was I met Josh, got kicked out of my house and broke up with Harris.

June: Spent my birthday at the beach, you started to be mean to me. Got a job at the Jewish Country club and then quit. Went to a million shows. Hung out with Mansion boys a lot.

July: Got a job at Starbucks. I met Jake Amy Hillary Perry and Daniel this month. We went on 2 road trips to Philly. Visited Lauren at the beach. I broke some hearts and you were still leading me on.

August: Broken heart, booked my first show, Best Friends Day. I went to get my Mighty Ducks crew neck back and it ended up going really well but that didn't last long. Started school at essex.

September: Sean punched me in the face. Worked a lot and went to a lot of shows. The Ergs broke up. Fuck school. Fuck boys. New dillinger four leaked.

October: THE FEST.

November: Ergs last show. Strictly listened to pop-punk this whole month. Tried to do better in school but failed.

December: Lots of shows. Met tons of new people. Hung out with the family more. Went in to the New year with Wu Tang Clan.